My husband Ben and I had our first baby girl, Sage Lowe Edgerton, one month ago. So I have been close to our home for the most part. I was able to get away one night with my Dad and Sage to spend the night on the Llano River. We stepped outside after dinner and the stars were so bright. Being in the city I forget how vast and mysterious the sky is.
02 Object (old)
There is a pile of shells and rocks on my bedside table that I have collected over the years. No one has ever asked me about them but twice this month they have been brought up: once by my four year old niece who took them out and arranged them in a grid on the table, and second by Ben who picked each of them up asking where I had found them. It was nice to be reminded of all the places I have been in a time when I am so confined to one space.
03 Object (new)
When Sage was born my sister-in-law gathered words of wisdom for her from all different women in my life. She transcribed their words into a little red notebook. I cannot describe how invaluable these words have been to me, and will be someday be to my daughter. Some of my favorite advice came from my young nieces who recommended she not “fly kites by trees” and that “sometimes she will feel shy, but she should try and talk anyway.”
I have loved seeing what joy a baby brings to people. We have one neighbor who was especially taken by Sage. She is an older woman who lives alone and seems down on her luck. We took Sage over to meet her a few days ago and she just lit up - singing her songs, giggling with her. We were surprised to see such a joyful and kind spirit come out of an otherwise solemn women.
05 Night Out
A week or so after Sage was born some friends and I did cold plunges into their pool under a full moon. It weirdly felt like a physical washing away of my pregnancy and labor - a fresh start to a new phase in my life.
06 Day Out
Sage, Ben, and I marched in the Women’s March on Austin. The energy was powerful and gave us hope for a future that has looked bleak in the past few months. I will be proud to tell Sage that she was part of a critical moment in history.
07 Time Alone
Maternity leave has been odd. I am at once never alone and alone more than I have ever been. Life with a newborn takes a lot of physical attention but the hours spent nursing and watching her sleep leave a lot of time for the mind to wonder. I have physically been alone twice, once to the grocery store and once to an art event for designers.
08 Time With A Friend
A good friend of mine who is a mother of three came over for what she called a ‘nap date.’ This is where she cares for the baby while I choose something I’d like to do - nap, clean the kitchen, watch TV, etc. I decided sitting on the couch, drinking coffee, and letting our conversation take us wherever while she held Sage was exactly what I needed. We ended up looking through design books and discussing her upcoming home renovation. It is amazing how she just knew what a new mom needed. I felt very loved and cared for.
09 Movie / TV / Book
Movie: Doing anything for longer than 45 minutes doesn’t really happen with a newborn so there have been no movies for me this month.
TV: I am re watching all of The Office. It is the perfect nursing entertainment and I truly could not love Michael Scott any more. The lightheartedness is very healing for me. A friend of mine made the connection: “Some people have turmeric tea, you have Michael Scott.”
Book: On Beauty and Being Just by Elaine Scarry (a gift from my husband) / The Little Prince pop up book by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry (a gift from my brother to Sage)
010 Creative Act
I have fully remodeled our kitchen (in my mind).