01 Story: What’s the best story you heard this month?
My friend telling me they went on a date with Kesha in 2010 - the story itself maybe isn't that amazing. But it's that reminder that we live in a world that is actually so small. She just saw him outside a house in Nashville and asked him to hang out; celebrities just want to hang out, too.
02 Nature: An encounter with the natural world
I climbed a hill of rocks in Joshua Tree. It was so tall and so dangerous and I was just wearing coveralls and Blundstones...no rock climbing gear [even though] I was climbing rocks. It felt so good to get to the top. Looking back, I could have easily fallen to my death a few times. But maybe part of getting to the top is knowing there are chances you could fall so hard.
03 Art Experience: An encounter with art (in any form)
I went to Art Queen in Joshua Tree, the public studio & shop of Shari Elf. It reminded me of the ways of sharing and experiencing art in a pre-Internet world.
04 Change: a meaningful change that impacts the way you live (either that you initiated or that entered from outside)
Something so profound happened with this past eclipse. Just some sort of TRUE TRUE shift...I think the biggest change was that I really decided I loved myself enough to not need outside love from partnership, which is something that has always been difficult for me to navigate.
05 New Idea: a new way of looking at things or something to attempt in the future
I can be dreamy and single at the same time.
06 Object (new): a new object that held significance
A smooth rock from the desert.
07 Object (old): an old object that took on new/different kind of meaning
I used to have a small Buddha statue collection. When I moved to California I got rid of a lot of them but my favorite is a marble one that was my dad's in college. I love my dad so much and miss him (he lives in Michigan and I am in California). It was in our basement growing up and I always loved it so much - I just put it in a more prominent place in my house and it feels really special to reconnect with it.
08 Discard: Something you decided to rid yourself of this month.
Feeling shame about being successful. Or perhaps I am saying I got rid of shame in hopes that I am, or will. Growing up in a lower middle class family that has always struggled with moeny, I find sometimes I hold on to that story to not distance myself from my family. So, I am watching this come to an end...or rather maybe I am seeing a new part of this journey begin.
09 Gratitude: something you have been specifically thankful for this month:
The women of the land. The women of this place I currently call home are so so amazing to me. They are so resilient. We sit in circles with each other, drinking tea, listening. Real, wild ways of seeing each other. I've just never quite expereicned this level of commitment to community before.
10 Proportion: A specific moment that reminded you of the scale of the universe. That you are part of a greater whole.
Back to Joshua Tree with this answer. My time there was truly so transformative. As I was crawling to the top of a stack of boulders, I wasn't even completely sure if they were connected to each other...but I crawled to the damn top. And the sunset was unimaginably magnificent, completely consuming, with incapturable colors. I felt so small and so a part of it the same time.